It has been over a year since I have last posted on here, but I am officially bringing it back… It is good to be here again! :)
At the beginning of the Christmas break, I spent a week on a come and see with the Franciscan TOR sisters. During my time there, I read the book, “Praying for Priests: A Mission for the New Evangelization” by Kathleen Beckman, L.H.S. (Side note: This is a really incredible book and I HIGHLY recommend it.) This quote in particular struck me as I was reflecting one day in chapel:
There is a great thirst among God’s people, but the thirst of Jesus is far greater. (Praying for Priests pg. 103)
Oh the truth and beauty of this statement! As much as we long for the love of the Lord, far greater does He long – does He thirst – for OUR love! I would like to share a reflection I had at the time while meditating on this quote:
I often think about how much I thirst for God, but look in the wrong places to satisfy it, or think about how other people are thirsting for God whether or not they realize it. But I hardly ever think about the fact that You thirst for us, Jesus, in an even greater way. You told us from the cross, “I thirst.” All the addictions and serious sins we passionately pursue – the same thirst we see in St. Mary Magdalene – much greater do You thirst and pursue our hearts. That must kill You to see us like that… and our sins did. Here You are thirsting for us and our souls, and we long for You whether or not we realize it, and we choose other things to fill us that are not You. We look to so many things to fill our void, to ease the ache of our hearts, to find relief: sin, Netflix, music, other people, activities. And You let us choose… You watch us walk away… because You thirst for our love in return. This is mind-blowing because the love that I am able to give You is minuscule, yet You thirst for it… You thirst for me. You thirst for all of me. And so You give us so many ways to come back to You, to encounter You, to recognize You, to see You: people, “coincidences”, sacraments, mercy, priests, religious, new babies, married couples, yet we are so fickle as humans and miss it all. Oh Your Heart, Lord. Oh Your Sacred Heart. Your agony at losing Your children, even for a moment… How You thirst for us, how we long for You. In Your Heart alone will we find rest.
How beautiful is the Lord’s love for each of us, His beloved children! I invite you to pray this prayer with me:
Dear Jesus, I know I have hurt You. I’ve turned from You more times than I’ve been proud of, all the while not recognizing the thirst and love in Your eyes for me. I’m sorry, Lord. If there’s any way I can console You, ease Your pain, bring any relief to Your Sacred Heart, show me. Show me the longing for my soul in Your eyes. If that means being a victim of Your mercy and receiving the mercy others reject, make me that victim. I don’t suffer well, but if it means sharing in Your suffering, then teach me how to suffer. I accept all, in order to console Your suffering Heart. I know, too, I will sin again, Lord… never cease to extend Your mercy to me. I love You, Jesus, please accept this small act of love from my heart and teach me to receive Your love. May it penetrate my very being – everything that I am. May my identity be Your love, I want to be nothing, I want everything to be Your love. Amen.